Am wondering how to begin... 
So, ok.... here it goes...
I recently realise that I am now a happier person than I used to be. Not that I've overcome all life's obstacles - they're still here and there, jolting their way through the calmness in life - but I just feel simply..... happy.
Contemplating upon the 'source' of it, something snapped out of nowhere (in my thoughts), that IT IS GOD'S LOVE that works it. Yes, this realisation might come a bit too late, but then, nothing is ever too late for God.
I delved deeper, and I further realise that the LOVE comes in the forms of many things around me. Worldly possessions that I never thought I would had, are right there before my eyes, and they are so much more than I ever dreamed of. I have company of families, whom I used to take for granted. Then there came some best friends, with whom I share most of my daily ups and downs with. And even in hardships and struggles, the Love never shades Itself.
I struggled through my childhood and teenage years, and never really had the experiences that most youngsters get to enjoy. I blamed Him once, at one point when I 'had enough of the world'. I've had many regrets in my life; too many why's, frustrated at my own imperfections, and wanted 'everything' this world has to offer.
But now, all those miserable feelings that I used to have, seems to ebb away, and at most times, I don't feel them at all.
I am no angel, though. Sometimes I'm still ignorant on the things that I know God wants me to do. I don't pray enough (because I forget to) and I still feel horribly 'evil' at times.
But through it all, I feel blessed. With all the trials that come my way, I am certain - like I once shared - that they are just small parts of God's bigger plan for me. It's blissful to feel God's love - not by being loved by other people, but by loving others unconditionally, even when I'm feeling unappreciated or rejected by people that I show my love to.
I do not believe in the saying 'I can forgive, but not forget'. Being forgiving with a heart of love, one does not need to keep the 'remembrance' of what wrongs others do to him/her.
God has answered many of my prayers, in ways that I never imagined. I never came to be thankful to those answered prayers 'on the spot'. My comprehensions, more often than not, come long after He stretch for me. As a creature of weaknesses, how easy I am to fall into the snare of ungratefulness!
As I live another day today, I'll keep my heart crossed to be happy and content, in every part of my earthly life. Job was a biblical figure of my admiration. He was repentant, remembering God with thankfulness, patience, and steadfastness, through the very toughest tests that were laid upon him.
Praying that all of you, too, are blessedly happy now! :)
So, ok.... here it goes...
I recently realise that I am now a happier person than I used to be. Not that I've overcome all life's obstacles - they're still here and there, jolting their way through the calmness in life - but I just feel simply..... happy.
Contemplating upon the 'source' of it, something snapped out of nowhere (in my thoughts), that IT IS GOD'S LOVE that works it. Yes, this realisation might come a bit too late, but then, nothing is ever too late for God.
I delved deeper, and I further realise that the LOVE comes in the forms of many things around me. Worldly possessions that I never thought I would had, are right there before my eyes, and they are so much more than I ever dreamed of. I have company of families, whom I used to take for granted. Then there came some best friends, with whom I share most of my daily ups and downs with. And even in hardships and struggles, the Love never shades Itself.
I struggled through my childhood and teenage years, and never really had the experiences that most youngsters get to enjoy. I blamed Him once, at one point when I 'had enough of the world'. I've had many regrets in my life; too many why's, frustrated at my own imperfections, and wanted 'everything' this world has to offer.
But now, all those miserable feelings that I used to have, seems to ebb away, and at most times, I don't feel them at all.
I am no angel, though. Sometimes I'm still ignorant on the things that I know God wants me to do. I don't pray enough (because I forget to) and I still feel horribly 'evil' at times.
But through it all, I feel blessed. With all the trials that come my way, I am certain - like I once shared - that they are just small parts of God's bigger plan for me. It's blissful to feel God's love - not by being loved by other people, but by loving others unconditionally, even when I'm feeling unappreciated or rejected by people that I show my love to.
I do not believe in the saying 'I can forgive, but not forget'. Being forgiving with a heart of love, one does not need to keep the 'remembrance' of what wrongs others do to him/her.
God has answered many of my prayers, in ways that I never imagined. I never came to be thankful to those answered prayers 'on the spot'. My comprehensions, more often than not, come long after He stretch for me. As a creature of weaknesses, how easy I am to fall into the snare of ungratefulness!
As I live another day today, I'll keep my heart crossed to be happy and content, in every part of my earthly life. Job was a biblical figure of my admiration. He was repentant, remembering God with thankfulness, patience, and steadfastness, through the very toughest tests that were laid upon him.
Praying that all of you, too, are blessedly happy now! :)
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